Sometimes indecisiveness is the end. Sometimes the lack of making a decision makes a decision for you. I’m slowly creeping towards another year of my life and I’m trying to figure out my goals and wishes to come. In the grand scheme of things I’m not that far into life that we see people talk about at retirement, I have a lot more years to go. However, looking back I can honestly say that the accomplishments stack is feeling really light.

I’ve been told by many not to try and measure your achievements so simply. That we all have differing paces. However, I can’t help but do it like that. I can’t help but try and measure up and wonder how well or poorly I’m doing. The problem with all of that is it becomes overwhelming. As I sit, stare and criticize myself and think of ways to improve and make something worthwhile I sit there unable to achieve it; or I come up with plans or ideas that would help make these things more easily achievable that on a larger scale don’t guarantee improving my prospects for reaching these goals.

You can see the spiral of worrying that I fall into at times.

I’m not saying all hope is lost, but rather I find myself at the point where I wonder why wonder. I wonder how can I honestly make these things work better for me. And sit there wondering how stacked the deck may be and how long I have to hold out for that Queen of Hearts I need to make that royal flush. Or if I should try and bluff the two pair my opponent thinks I have.

Anyways, I’m going to leave that all there and here are the few films I caught up with this week.

New To Me

Modern Times (1936) – Chaplin makes me smile, even when he sings a song I don’t understand the words to.
13 Hours: The Secret Soldiers of Benghazi (2016) – I keep trying to think if I’m going to write something on this, then time passes.

Rewatched

The Raid 2: Berendal (2014) – violence can sometimes be it’s own catharsis in cinema
Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy (2011) – A year after more James Bond hit, I still love some quiet spying that feels so internal we wonder why.
Django Unchained (2012) – it amazes me sometimes just how fun Tarantino can be, even when we’re looking into subjects that should not at all be traditionally fun at the cinema.

The Tally

Total Films Seen Released in 2016	2
Total New To Me Films in 2016	23
Total Films Seen in 2016	33